Having trouble saying goodbye

I'm having trouble saying goodbye. I can't believe I leave tomorrow. 29 hours from now. I leave Barcelona, I leave Europe, I leave all my wonderful fabulous friends I've made here. Yes the good people will always be there. Yes, I'm moving on to new adventures and new places, new experiences all around, filled with more fabulous people, blah blah blah. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm leaving these ones.

Barcelona was much more than just a transition for me from Europe to Latin America, it was an affirmation of possibilities. Of possible happiness, possible friendships, possible lifestyles, even possible relationships. And who in their right mind, after seeing and experiencing all these amazing possibilities would want to leave them? Tis the nature of life though, forever changing, forever evolving.

I have felt more at home in Barcelona, more like me, than I have anywhere else since first setting foot on this continent in London exactly 4 years ago this month, effectively starting my love affair with it and prompting my move to Brussels a little while later. Saying goodbye to it is much more than just leaving a city, a country or a continent, even perhaps to return one day. It's like saying goodbye to lover. There were bad times, and there were good times, hardships and ecstatic enamored moments. Lover's spats and passionate make-up sessions. I forever changed as a person because of it. So when I say that the love still runs deep, I trully mean it. However that doesn't change the fact that it is still time to move on.

Extremely sentimental I know, but that's how I'm feeling right now as I sit at my favorite neighbourhood café, savoring this café con leche and croissant as if it might be my last. And who knows, it very well might be. Because if there is one thing that life has taught me, it is that it is completely unpredictable, and we must savor each moment. It is not with pessimism but with a appreciative realism that I say nothing lasts forever. Take in and appreciate those wonderful moments sitting on a terrace sipping corona as the sun shines down on you and your closest friends. Live in that moment while it is happening, because you truly never know if it will be repeated. Those blissful roadtrips whizzing down the seemingly never ending highway as you're reclined in the passenger seat, music blasting, sun shining, breathtaking landscapes and skyscapes all around. Those afternoons spent at 2,600m caught up in excellent and deep conversation surrounded by some of the most beautifully imposing mountain ranges known to man. Those are the moments worth living in life. Those are the moments that one day we will look back on with nothing but glowing fond memories. It only makes sense to give them the proper attention they deserve while we are in them.

This is why I'm having trouble saying goodbye.

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