breakdowns and beaches

What a day yesterday.. I went from breaking down during an intense tarot card reading with Maria from the stress and worry of being homeless/country-less and unable to afford rent anywhere come the end of next week, to having one of the most wonderful evenings/nights I've had in a long time. But 'tis the life of the international traveller I suppose. It's definitely not easy, but the rewards are well worth it.

And today? Well today I feel more like a normal human being again. Not some corporal entity bouncing from from end of the emotional spectrum to the other between lesson plans, learner assignments and teaching practice. I worked late nights and between breaks during the week to give myself this one golden peaceful work-free day. 

In many ways, I feel like I've learned an inhuman amount these last three weeks here in Barcelona. It's been incredibly intense in every way. Work, classes, emotions, spirituality, relations, friendships, even 'home' life. But as The Wheel symbolises, positive change and progress are never easy.

And what lies ahead? Next week in particular...Well, thanks to Maria, who sees me more deeply than most people do, I've accepted the fact that for right now, I've done all that I can, and I just have to sit back and let the universe work its magic.

Yes... Well, I'm hoping that this blissful sentiment will at least last until the end of the day. Baby steps.