Right now it is currently 4:17pm, the day before I leave for Switzerland from here at 2:15pm, Chavdar and I have dinner reservations at 8pm at a fondue restaurant that will take at least a half hour to get to, I have a few important things to get done tomorrow morning, and I am nowhere near being packed. Not only do I have to pack my suitcases, figure out logistically how I will pack said suitcases to carry them, but I have to pack up and put away the rest of my room and stuff too. And what am I doing? Blogging...
My trip to Canada was good. Very bittersweet though, as I realized that everything has changed. Mom kept saying that she was so excited for me to go to Switzerland because it meant I was starting a new phase in my life. I kept telling her no, I would just be there for 3 months, but I think she was right. Yes that's right mom, I said you were right. Just seeing old friends made me realize how far we've all gone, and how much we've grown, mostly apart. But friends that old, you know that no matter how much you grow apart, the minute you get back together you start creating new memories that tie you together again. I think the problem is more with newer friends. I mean, a person that I previously considered as my best friend, is now doing nothing but bitching about me to anyone that will listen, spreading rumours, and talking behind my back. Without even so much as a "Have fun in Switzerland" or "How was your trip back to Canada". My real friends tell me, when they see how much this pains me to have a not only a friend but a best friend do this to me, keep telling me that he is just jealous and petty. But it is just hard for me to wrap my head around how much a person can change in the span of one year. I mean, I guess I have changed a lot as well, what with everything that has happend in the last year of my life, but its just hard seeing someone you were so close to turn against you.
So to the friends that came to see me while I was back in Canada, who took time out of their lives to pick me up from somewhere, to meet me for a drink, to let me stay at their place or even to drop other plans to be able to Skype while I was in a similar timezone, and to the friends who have been there for me but I was not able to see, for a variety of reasons not limited to the incredibly short period of time I was there, and especially to my European friends who have also went out of their way over the last year to see me, who have been there for me, and who plan to come see me in Switzerland, I love you all and I am eternally grateful for your friendship. While it saddens me how people can grow appart so quickly, and how friends drift apart and no longer have much in common, no matter how close they used to be, I do understand, as it is a part of life. To the many people whom this applies to that were once an integral part of my life, I am grateful for your presence in my life as well, and am glad that I got to share a part of my life with you. However, to the people who have become ungrateful, bitchy, backstabbing, gossipy assholes, especially to the people who you once called your friends, you are a detriment to society and you can jump up your own ass and die. :)
Well I don't want them to die, I don't wish that for anyone, but I'm having a hard time thinking of a better and stronger way to tell them to go fuck themselves. Anyways.. I now have to meet Chavdar in exactly 2h30 hours, and still have my entire room to pack. So I will most likely see you again in a couple days, with a tour and pictures of my new place in Switzerland :)
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